Let it be.

I don’t want to let what happened before, affect the person I am now. I constantly worry and I run away so much because I’m afraid to get hurt again, but the truth is, I want to mend the wounds that have been re-opened time and again. For good. I want to be able to break everything down and start anew. The person that I’ve become is real, but only because I built so much of myself to be like this. And that’s just not cool. I want a genuine Sueann that lives, just because I truly believe.

But I don’t know how exactly to live, so I want to remain silent. So that I can open my mind to the people around me and how THEY live. So that I can form my opinions raw, and decide what I really want.

There isn’t any point trying to build more fences around my heart and soul. I want to tear them down and start raw. I want to embrace the true person that I am. I want to relive all over again.

It is so frightening. But pray for me and I think I might just make it out of this thunderstorm, into an eternal sunshine, amen.